Sunday Soul Searching is something I sometimes do if I have some time or if I’m feeling restless or uneasy about something. I usually find it helpful to look inwards, meditate with certain thoughts in mind and answer the questions that are hovering somewhere between my brain and my mouth. You know, those things you just can’t quite put your finger on…In other words, I guess it’s a rant!
So, it’s been around 5 months now since my travel adventure came to an end, I’m back home in the UK, living with my boyfriend and still trying to adjust to normal life…. or so I thought.
I have literally just reached this conclusion: What’s Normal? For some it might be working a steady 9-5, for others marriage and children is the norm, some people live for the weekend and don’t ever stop to wonder whether there’s more to life.
But for me, life is about doing what makes you happy and at this present time, I don’t want to adjust to ‘normal life’ I want to embrace my life. I spent 3 years doing what made me happy, living (what I deem to be) was the most perfect, stress free life. Spending everyday with my wonderful boyfriend, exploring new cities, new beaches, new countries, meeting amazing people and immersing ourselves in new cultures. This made me incredibly happy, but apparently, this also made me abnormal.
Since coming home people, friends, family, all seem to have these expectations of what I should be doing and who I should be. I have been accused of wasting three years of my life, of ‘changing’, and I have lost friends who I thought would always be there for me. Everyone is so quick to judge and to tell me what their opinion is and although I am grateful for their input, I’m a grown ass woman with opinions and input of my own.
You don’t spend three years on the other side of the world without growing up and ‘manning up’ and some people don’t like this, but I like this. I like me.
From a personal point of view, in the last 4 months I have fully furnished my flat (that I own!) lost over a stone in weight, cut my hair pretty short (it’s growing out now though) turned 32, bought a car, started a business, started a Meetup group and I’ve been to Bury st Edmunds (the furthest north I have ever ventured in the UK!) I love my achievements, I love my life and no body should tell me what’s normal!
I sat down earlier, searched You Tube for Tired Pony, and just meditated to the sound of the music. The day is grey and miserable, but my room was cosy and during those 60 minutes there was nowhere I would have rather been. I was content, I was peaceful and that’s when it my What’s Normal realisation hit me.
I don’t want to fit in to a box and I’m just going to live my life in a way that brings me fulfilment and joy. I hope I don’t sound petulant, arrogant or selfish, but until I find another path, I’m going to continue on this one.
Sorry, that was a definite rant! For less ranting and more food pics please check out Without_Cruelty on Instagram and if you would like to visit my Fairtrade baby, Vidorra, then click here. My previous ‘Soul Searching’ post was written over 2 years ago and it’s here if you fancy a read ✌❤
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